An Apology

For those of you who have been wondering what happened to KUL, this is an apology letter.

As editor-in-chief, I dropped the ball. The team has been on top of it, but the final step of the process was on hiatus due to me being missing in action. For that, I am sincerely sorry.

This is not an excuse so much as an explanation of what has been happening in my life. As much as I wanted to stick to our schedule, it has not been the easiest. Essentially, May has been a huge month for me this year.

The view from my room.

For one, I recently moved into a new apartment. My first place, to be exact.

It is everything I wanted for my very first home. However, that facade does come with a few issues. For about a month, we did not have wifi, gas, and furniture. Everything was a long, stressful process. Once a problem was solved, another would arise. The day we got our wifi working, was the day our toilet started acting up. Our home was barely a home as we had no means to cook, work, even the most basic part of living aka relief ourselves, we could not do.

The cherry on top of this mess was that we had guests due to arrive in a few days.

For about a week or two, we each had guests over back to back. There was never a morning where I walked out without bumping into a temporary roommate. Let me tell you, juggling summer class, two internships, and a guest is no easy feat.

Your time is no longer yours.

This isn’t to say that I wasn’t happy to have people over. It’s just a matter of fact that your time and space is now divided between you and your guest. When you are the host, your responsibility is your guest, which does, in fact, take up time and energy. This is true especially when you have no gas in your place, thus, you have to feed your guest elsewhere.

By the end of every night, I would be so exhausted to the point where I pass out once my head hits the pillow. If you know me, this rarely happens.

The lack of bookshelf means using my windowsill as one.

After a day of recuperating from more than a week of guests coming in and out, I had to muster the energy to go to Governor’s Ball. This was easy because I have been planning this for months now. Staying in the dorm alone during spring break was worth this weekend of live music.

Alas, Mother Nature had other plans. The most anticipated day of Governor’s Ball in which Kanye was due to perform was canceled due to heavy storms.

Luck was not on our side.

A thorough piece on my experience will be posted soon. So, stay tuned for that. It will feature a quick recap of what went down in Manhattan in a case of Where’s Kanye.

If anything, the month of May has taught me that the transition to adulthood is rarely easy.

A cheap way to decorate: Command strips + photos + postcards from art musuems
A cheap way to decorate: Command strips + photos + postcards from art museums.

It doesn’t sneak up on you as much as you gradually glide into it without realizing it. One day you are enrolling into university, the next you are apartment hunting and paying rent. Before you know it, you are plunging a toilet and cleaning the gas stove.

I never gave much thought about adulthood until I uttered the words, “I’m going to the bank to resolve my savings account issue.”

The transition into adulthood is even more jarring when you are on the other side of the world from your parents. This means having to rent a car with your roommate to move everything from one borough to the other for 10 hours on your only day off during finals week. It also means having to decide between wifi providers, dealing with maintenance personnel when your toilet is clogged 6 times in less than two weeks, and furnishing your new place with a budget.

As of now, our recycling can is serving as our TV stand because we have yet to find one within our budget nor do we have the time to do so. We don’t have a couch either.

Slowly but surely, though, we will find our way.

I hope wherever you are in terms of your transition into adulthood, you are doing well. We are all in this together.

Photos by Sophia Charles. If you have stories of first apartments and disasters or general adulting experiences you would like to share, feel free to email us at We would love to hear from you. Jangan malu. 


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